Malheureux

Just the thought of you 

Stings me.

I feel my chest cramping 

Like a monster is in me.

I wanted to dress to impress

Have snacks to release stress

Make sure I am not depressed.

Efforts I put in become less

But you are still there

And said I’m the best

Thought I had other friends,

Where are the rest?

Flash-backs 

Are something that I hope you not look at

Do not think back 

Because I am not a part of your memories,

Not yet.

I find myself longing for your messages 

Every second every day

And even if my love will not be reciprocated 

I hope I will find my way

Back to the life full of joy and happiness

I pray.

Never enough

All the shine of thousand spotlights
All the stars we steal from the night sky
Will never be enough
Never be enough, never be enough

A new hairstyle to make yourself look better, they say you look worse
Extra effort on assignments, still an A minus
最近生活好多事情都感覺不如意

好似力不從心

也不知道是不是寂寞在作祟

開始覺得自己不夠美麗不夠好

年齡不再青春漸顯老

都二十歲了 真愛還沒找著 

我失敗嗎我？

朋友告訴我說「真爱这种东西不是找来的，是经营出来的」

好啦 確實是蠻有道理的

但是 沒有姣好的臉蛋 誰在乎你內心多好看？

我已經盡力在把自己變漂亮了

可是旁人的說辭為何總是讓我覺得我不足夠呢？

是真的 也許真的只是寂寞在作祟

這種自卑感 只有在自己一個人的時候 尤其深夜的時候 最為強勁

too much me time, reflecting how lonely I am, how desperate I am for love.

Perhaps sometimes all I need is just sleep, at least when I’m asleep

I’ll not think that I am never good enough.

每次寫部落格文章我總是會在最後的時候鼓勵自己

因為我相信世界是有真善美 是積極正面的。

我會有變自信、變漂亮、讓旁人刮目相看的一天的。

可是 問題來了

假如我真的變自信、變漂亮、讓你刮目相看了，

我，還會是我嗎？

假如有天你發現我內心也很漂亮，

你，還會是你嗎？

Never enough.

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There is nothing I am not worthy of.