Grow

Is this really what you want
what you need
Or is it because it happened
So you just go with the flow
And bear with it

Growing up has never been this hard
Like a rock hitting a fragile piece of card 
Broken and shattered
Empty heart and a face full of tears

A pat on the head 
A tight hug 
Looking in her eyes and say
I know you are not okay

It takes time
Like what all of them say
But when will it end 
For me to become truly happy 
Truly happy once again?

Thoughts while working 3

Another day another thoughts while working blogpost 😂😅

Recently I've decided to study Foundation in arts in UTAR leading to Journalism degree. I will be visiting UTAR Sg Long the day after tomorrow with my parents. Since I wanted to take Journalism, I have to go Kampar, Perak to study three years of Journalism degree course after studying one year of foundation( in either Sg Long or Kampar). 

Of course I want to study in other institutes with good reputation and better environment but MY FAM ISNT THAT RICH AND MY RESULTS R SO GG (just like TT I'm like TT)

My friend is been telling me that she struggles to choose between UTAR & TARC thus I look up between the two to know their differences. I wanted to study UTAR because my mum says it's UNIVERSITY & TARC is UNIVERSITY COLLEGE so the UNIVERSITY one would be better (Asians). I agree too because UTAR also has better reputation. But when I look for details about Journalism degree course in TARC, I found out that I can study overseas (in U.K.) & the fees are actually cheaper than that in UTAR excluding accommodations fees and all that. Around 10k cheaper. 

I'm starting to hesitate because studying in UK & getting to speak with a British accent was actually my dream.....

~~\ ( ; _ ; )/~~

Yknow sometimes I feel pretty glad that I've graduated from high school and left toxic people who like to compare everything, judge everything and who have all the filthy personalities. But it seems like I cannot avoid these kind of people to appear in my life because I STILL FKN meet these kind of people. (the old ones seem to not change after graduating coz I thought they'd probably grow up or some shit)

People who are elder and more experienced told me that I cannot stop the people from behaving like that and they will ALWAYS be people like these in the society. I'll meet even more filthy people in the future when I really stepping out of my comfort zone to the brutal society.

I'm mentally prepared for that but I can't guarantee that I will not complain about it again???? Or do something insane???? Hopefully I don't because I'm such a nice person. 🤔 

╮(╯▽╰)╭

While I was searching for comparisons between UTAR & TARC I found a blogger who blogged about his life in UTAR therefore I read a little bit of his blog. He stopped blogging two years ago. And it's kind of saddening???!!?!?!?

Why does it make me so upset when bloggers stop blogging.....😭😢

Although no one actually reads my blogposts, I guess I wouldn't stop blogging??? I might be lazy to update my blog but for now I don't think I will ever stop blogging. 

Who knows someday someone would actually be interested in me and reads my blog? Or someone just like me who just inadvertently finds out my blog? LOL or maybe I would be a famous blogger someday and all the old blogposts would be so embarrassing (They already are 😂) 

Undeniably, a part of me wants all that to happen. 

Lmfao! Time to stop with all the imaginations and end this post here. I will update about my further studies soon. By the way, I failed to make a YouTube video about Chinese New Year, till next year then..😂

Annyeonghikaseyo :3

2016 is ending

I've abandoned my blogger for almost a year, therefore the first thing I would like to do here is to apologize...although no one actually reads my blog LMAO.

2016 has been a year full of challenges, sweats, tears, laughters, happiness and memories. My year to sit for SPM. My last year in secondary school. My last year being a teenager because I'm turning 18 next year. My first time buying contact lenses. I got my first ever high heels. My first time calling 999/ the ambulance to help saving someone. First time in my life I determined to become more fashionable. Attending my once in a lifetime graduation night soon on Wednesday. I genuinely feel that me myself is growing up. Started earning money by working part time job. Started to have new year resolutions and dreams but still struggling about what to study in the future.

There're so much more little things that happened this year...and what I've learnt; what I've gained; what I've lost.... my last time; my first time doing all those things. 最美好的照片，是记忆的画面。I cannot put all them into words.... instead of writing them in this blog post, I guess I will just let all these beautiful, wonderful, even awful pieces of memories to remain in my mind... and I will cherish them for the rest of my life. 

Finishing SPM, it means that I am already in the turning point of my life. No one knows what the future holds. I'm seventeen. In this point of my life I feel happy; I feel that I am afraid, I am also perplexed and dazed. I believe soon I will figured out all the questions in my mind that is currently making me struggle.

Do not worry, because I am back to blogging (I think, hahaha if I'm not lazy). I will update about the graduation night with photos. Stay tuned! 

(⁎⁍̴̛ᴗ⁍̴̛⁎) 

what actually matters?

you guys probably have no idea what happened these days...sigh. i don't even know how to put those into words. too many things happened, and to be really honest, i just feel really tired. but at the same time, i enjoyed things, i learnt...

maybe photos could tell you more? 

not to show off or whatever but these sum up my sixteenth , still have more to go tho... :)

do you ever feel lifeless...or emo or started to realize that they are actually alot of fake people in your life, even tho she or he is your close friend??? 

do you ever feel like theres no one to talk heart to, everyone seems busy with their own life as time passes by, as we started to grow older???

do you ever feel like, you are too dumb to realize ??

or is it just me who feel this way?

sometimes i really don't know how to deal with fake friends 

i think its a time for me to learn

but i don't wanna lose any of my friends

i appreciate each and everyone of them

i'd rather be dumb

i'd rather not find out the "truths", never

with that, i might not doubt my friends, might not doubt myself

"did i do anything wrong?"

"why do the haters hate me?"

i am 16, in a phrase where you started to learn things about "living"

i want my life to be happy, fullfilled, not wasted

not full of sadness, doubts, and fake friends.

i don't know what to do

can you tell me what to do?

i always say, when i am sad, i blog. because blogging always makes me feel better. it does though :)

+ the form fives are having SPM right tomorrow...means they're leaving us...leaving the school...to achieve their own goals :')

我会舍不得你们的 很舍不得 尤其是sayang我的那些你们... </3

what will i be without the form fives???? how????

i cannot accept the fact that, months later, me myself will be a Form5. which means ... i am facing SPM, more obstacles, more challenges...

but as i said,,,it's time to grow, right?

it's time to grow, Cece

you'll be better 

you'll strive for better

you'll have faith to strive for better :)

i believe in you, Cece

yes, i believe in myself.

Just bored,,,and

sigh i don't even know what am i doing with my life
...
,,,
,..,..
begining of this holiday..i'm already here procrastinating, doing basically nothing. its not like i have nothing to do but there are things that i cannot do. you got me??
well except for surfing on the internet all day everyday, trying to cook stuffs and made a new cover, i think nothing else i have done. LOL.

I watch dramas. umm actually it's not a drama but a TV programme called 爸爸去哪儿1&2 in chinese. (Dad where are we going) and this show IS ADORABLE AS HECK OMG. YOU CAN'T POSSIBLY GET OVER HOW CUTE THE KIDS ARE. LITERALLY!

For cooking stuffs..I search for "how to make" foods in youtube and found some ways in making potatoes and pancakes (the easiest lol) and i've been eating alot these days. YOU CAN SEE MAH BELLY, IT'S FA...FA...FABULOZ :P

Oh and yeah, I made a cover of the song Cecilia. the reason i like this song and made cover of it is because whenever i listen to it, they're like , singing to me. coz cecilia, sounds exactly like CECELIA. WHICH IS ME! so i feel special :3

here it is! have a look hehe :D

I have quite amount of negative thoughts lately. because of my family and maybe some filthy people, undoubtly. You know, living live in my house with a bunch of people who just don't understand you & falsely incriminate you is just terrible......very.

You cannot fight, cannot do anything except for bearing with those shits they put up. You get tired and fed up on them, but what else can you do? Nothing. Because at this age (teenagers), the world define us as immature. Everything we do must get approvalapproval, even though the adults are sometimes wrong, the teenagers(me) will never be right. 

I couldn't do anything, so i just decide to not give a shit. For me, the lesser shit you gave, the happier you'll be. And i guess i won't do things to "revenge" on them or doing overabundance (maybe not) things to defeat them. I am who I am (quoted from my queen Avril ), and I live for myself , not for others. Why would I lowergrade myself for them anyhow?

I was mad, was pissed. I even cried myself to sleep because I think I am not good enough in everything, and blaming myself why was I born here?! But this is not the end, right? I got up stronger. better. wiser. Things will get better, I will get better. I know. :)

So here I am, decided to be better, and live life with more positive thoughts. I do this for myself, I hope it all works out! haha :)

However, I am still bored... what can i do? hmmm. I guess I should go back to watch my tv show :P 

Stay tuned, i will be back very soon. xo

★

lost

Today Joyce asked me, what's my dream, what do I want to be in the future? All of sudden, everything was a silence. I thought really hard. Yeah, Cece, what are your future plans?

I think I love too much things. As you can see, musics, foods, speaking? I don't even know, I can't even choose. I want to get into science stream next year, but, can I? I don't even know what to do with this new pt3 shit, don't even know will I pass or will I get an A for those subjects to get into the class I want. Lost, lost with no direction.

Well, Miley's old song, The Climb, which I performed at the stage actually speaks my mind right now. Lost with no direction, my faith is shaking. BUT I, I GOTTA KEEP TRYIN, GOTTA KEEP MY HEAD HELD HIGH. 

I should seriously find out my future plans, my dream and what I really want to be. I don't want to be procrastinating anymore (THO I WILL STILL DO LOL)...perhaps I will wake up tomorrow morning and started to be mature, to know what I actually want? :/

Moody la, I didn't tell any friends about this... :( Perhaps I should ask them soon for their opinions, hmm. 

I will soon be back with good mood & at least one plan, I promise. hehehe ;)

nightz! ★

oops

OOPS! IT'S ALREADY JULY? OMG. I DIDN'T UPDATE A SINGLE POST DURING JUNE :( UGH...BUT WHATEVER :p

so the form three students are basically screwed up by the PT3's shits. sigh. we're like the most pitiful batch of students, all the "hard works" we paid during the past two years are all wasted. What do you still want from us? TvT

And now, i am extremely worry about this PT3. i have feelings that i am definitely going to fail it. AM I? ugh. i don't know anymore. STRESSED!!! :'(

Anyways, i've got myself a pendrive :D i saved all my favourite musics, videos/drawings i made, my photos and a file named "shitty PT3" HAHAAH.

I don't think I will be blogging so much since now, I NEED to prepare for this shit. so yeah, if cece's lovers miss me, just come here :* MAH FB , MAH YOUTUBE CHANNEL , MAH TWITTER & MAH INSTA. Or you can ask me questions on http://ask.fm/CeceliaChangCCC :)

Miss me like how I will do.

xoxo

What I do on Holidays

It's finally holidays. heh~

Holidays are kind of bored compared to what I expected hmm maybe it's just the startings hohoho!! Basically i've done the choir practise and the days after this will be some sorakan(cheers) practises and some dates with people~~~HEHEHAHAHAHOHOHUHUHUHU!!!!!!!!

I am watching glee. It is really interesting but quite much for me to finish haha thanks to one of mah bestie for the pendrive XD.

Okay. Talking about relationships huh, I am still single since 1999 hahah :P Never been in a relationship before because I am too cool for that hehehe!!! for those confessions and rejections... i'm kinda a lunatic. hoho. I follow what I want to do so yeah! 爱情白痴。 I am that. (just incase you care and dont know about the meaning just google it :B)

Too young to fall in love. But it's okie to feel butterflies and curious about it right? ;)

*winks* wait for the next post cece lovers! :*

yo!!!

Soooooo. The exams just ended and I got pretty suck results :( I'm kind of sad because I really put at least 20 percent of effort on each subject. uhhh well :(

It's been a month since my last post huh...I've missed you~my dear blog! hehe. I've been taking part in various kind of competitions such as Chinese public speaking, Chinese poem speaking, English story telling and Malay poem telling(sajak). I got first place for Chinese poem speaking and Malay poem telling and second for the English one. I got third place for Chinese public speaking which just happened yesterday, and it was really hard. It gave you a topic at first, and gave only fifteen(or even less than that) to think about the whole manuscript. For me, that kind of person who doesn't really read books, it was so hard to perform a good one. :''D

Just in case you thought I was showing off, no I wasn't. As you guys know, I don't really have a talent, suck in sports and can't even get good grades in academic. So taking part in different kind of competitions really gained me experience and made me feel at least abit useful. HA!

I'm not a sporty person and have really small amount of stamina lol. And this, is what makes me want to be sporty! But I don't have a big interest for any kind of sports, except for football(soccer)...and swimming. In my school, the football team isn't really good and I can say they're no Chinese in the team. What's more for a girl? LMAO. I am not being racist, but sigh, I guess I really should find some ways to make myself sportier, although just a little bit more... TvT

Furthermore, I visited Seafield with my choir team! It's the first year for our school to take part choir competition and guess what, we got THIRD PLACE! This is unbelievable and we're really proud of that! Plus all the schools were great, especially SMK Seafield. (Y) Our uniforms are really cute and classy too, bet we can get a "Best uniform award" if there was one. :P I have uploaded some photos on facebook and instagram of this day, click the links to see if you're interested! mah FB & mah insta :3

In addition, I'm sort of addicted to Glee recently. Coz one of mah bestie has given me her pendrive which is fulled of GLEE HAHAH. Literally cried while watching it. It's amusing <3

OH YA! I'm on diet these days, I am trying to avoid junk foods such as potato chips(mah favourite TvT) and trying to eat more fruits (i like fruits). I do rope skipping to increase my height too, because 165cm is not enough for me. Target : 168-170cm :/ 

Guess these are what happened to me recently (from mah last post). I will blog more since those knotty examinations are over.

Vacations are coming soon too. heheheheheheehehehhe ;D

u_u

well i find that "u_u" emoji kinda cute so i just simply put it as title because i really don't know what to put there u_u

So recently I've been really busy(not really lol) so i did not update shits but yeah i still tweet u_u|| and if you had read my last post you'll basically be curious of what happened to me these days lol so imma gonna tell you now :P

1)Dad and mum are being mean and idk why perhaps they are having some troubles and i feel like they kinda over-protected me.(in my opinion) because i am like, a not-so-independent-girl who always trying to be independent and they are like "no you cannot". I know, they are really care about my safety but please, I am already 15 (nah lol) and I think it's time for me to grow up. for examples, I walk back to my grandma's house these three days and sleepover there because my parents went to Cameron Highlands and "throw" me and my bro to my grandma's house. lol and I decided to not burden my uncle and aunt to fetch me so i told them i will walk back home. Today i have ping pong meeting so I stayed till 3:30p.m. and when i reached home everyone's like "oi where did you went do you know everybody is worry bout you faster call your baba mummy and tell them you're back, FAST!!!" Fine...I called my dad and my dad scolded me and said "you think you're so clever is it now?" whaT THE HECK ?! I don't think I did anything wrong and I just think that they OVERLY CARED ABOUT ME! Especially my grandmother. plus I really dislike my aunt, uncle and grandma coz they always behave like a bitch/smoker/gossiper and I REALLY REALLY REALLY STRONGLY DISLIKE THEM. *trying to not bother about their detriments* 
{>:(}

2)Stressful coz the government has changed PMR to PBSMR and that shit actually irritated every single student (or teachers too). I always remind myself that this is an important shit and please do well and AHHHHHDAHAOJABFHWUW DO RE MI FA SO DONE WITH YOU!

3)Became busy coz i joined lots of koko(extracurricular activities) for marks and wow never wonder that is so exhausting.

4)Not sure about myself but I'm having a very strong curiousity about LOVE these days and meh you cannot judge bc i guess everyone had/have this kind of feeling before >~< I don't really have a crush right now or maybe my eyecandyz are way too much. LMAO!!

YEAH THAT'S WHAT I'M GOING TO BLOG an imma glad because I am not lazy today and blogged kinda a lot! n_n

Furthermore, I'm going to add a new tag on my blog : TO-DO-LIST (shopping list juga)
YAY. I believe that having a to-do-list & shopping list basically motivates me to be more hardworking and more assertive!!! ^o^

{hehe}

To-do-list and shopping list might be updated very soon and i hope y'all awesome readers will be patient about that heheh :3 
Love ya, peace! ★

Aches

i have a little secret to tell you, but you have to promise to not let anyone know

"once upon a time, there was a little girl. she's a very hyper girl and she always smiles! but one day, she's killed. and the people who killed her was the one she trusted the most "

i made the story!! :P

ok so i've been receiving tons of hurts these days and it's a very long story till i feel really lazy to type it out so yeah lol im just quoting what i think after getting hurt ^^

"behind every bad girl that's an untold story "

"pain does change people, would you mind if i changed to be blunt and obvious as fuck?"

"im not mean im just showing up my mind "

"dont let anyone know you cried how many times because they wouldn't trust you "

"be a good liar, but never forget to tell the truth at the end "

"they're not capable enough to break your heart "

"smile, they hate it"

"dont tell anyone that you broke-down, just dont "

"follow your heart but not losing your mind "

"im still the girl i was "

"trust me "

"dont show because theres no point showing "

:) 

try to understand me through these words please 
i would be really cherish for that ;)
i love you

huh?

it's 2014 already?
oh. 

Hai peeps, I'm back! 2014 is going well(?) so far and I'm really content hahaha *giggles* I have too much things to blog about, but there are TOO MUCH. So, am I gonna let photos to say the words? yes.

{ChaiQing and Esther. They're mine hahaha}

{Esther ;) <3}

{yummy!}

{yumz}

{Kimchi that Esther and I ordered two times, oh, miss those times :(}

{Mine hahaha :p}

This was last time :) every year, we three will gathering together at each other's birthday date and give each other presents, eat together, chit chat together. But this year, everything will be different. Esther is immigranting to US for her studies and she will seldom come back to Malaysia. :( Our promise will be last, but not "real" anymore, coz we're going to celebrate this with Esther by...SKYPING ! lol :P

Dear Esther, can you please don't leave me? My school life & everything without you beside me would be so so so BORED & LAME!!! I might be irritating you these days but frankly I just really cherish the times that we can still laugh together, help each other, laugh each other, study together, eat together and EVERYTHING :( You know how much you mean to me, you know it! YOU ARE SERIOUSLY THE BEST FRIEND AND THE CLOSEST FRIEND I'VE EVER HAD, ESTHER!!! (dear felicia emerald chaiqing and the friends i like chillax i still love you kay) 

I'm so upset la. But I'm strong enough, as you said, I am a strong girl right? ;) I won't disappoint you hehehehe :P (I WON'T CRY I PROMISE :''D)

Back to the photos I've posted, yeah, we had delicious green tea & strawberry ice-blended(?) together and MAH GURLZ gave me their presents <3 aww thanks (there's no space to say thankiew between us HAHAHAHA)

High school life is turning to be more serious and fun! (even though i still have haters -.-) Most of my friends have grown and become more mature ^^ but still, dramatic. IT'S OKIE LA WHATEVER MAN AT LEAST I AM STILL FABULOZ HAHAHAHAHA :3

Will update more these days coz I have decided to be a pleased and cheerful person + don't be lazy and easily upset anymore + be cool. lol (I always am :B)

Lastly, a picture I love a lot to end da post! :D
{we three.}

- you'll never know how much they mean to me -

Thanks for stalking and I love you. 

Bello! ;)

I find this word cute. It's from the banana-potato thingy lol! Despicable Me 2. :O Plus it's Avril new album's name!! BELLO. BELLO.

I kinda have a feeling to blog today c: Let's talk about my results? It is bloody bad though. I wish I won't be in the third class next year...lol 

(Actually I have nothing to blog about hahahahahaha no not funny oh well so yeah what should i say next)

I'm so looking forward to the holidays! I have camp and I'm going to Johor :) I'm delighted! :D I've missed my cousins in Johor a lot and I haven't been in Johor like... four years already! I think I am gonna have some fun. NGEAHEHEHEHEHEHE *big fat grin* 

I suddenly quoted this while I was in school. --> I am a loner. With insanity full filled. 
Seems cool right? But yeah that's me. 

{started to be cocky. meh.}

Currently obsessed to cool sporty guys with tan skin. (Or light cinnamon) *perasan* I'm likin' it. :3

goodbye yo.

WeyHey

Oh my god. Guys, do you feel happy to see my new post? lol (gets zero replies) I haven't been blogged for almost two months! (i counted) EVENTUALLY I AM BACK!! ;D 

I wasn't suffering sh!ts or what...I was just absolutely lying on my bed and don't feel like doing anything :3 *plays the lazy song* Oh and ya, procrastinating every single thing. So in case you think I'm studying all the time, you are wrong (; 

Well, actually that's a lot of stuffs happened in these few months. I even cried for friendships' problems. But after it, I choose to care lesser. You know that feeling when you cared a lot but the person seems like don't give a sh!t on you right? That was exactly me. I felt unappreciated and I don't want to be! Therefore I choose to be "mean" to the ones who doesn't cherish the things I've done for them.

Final examination has just started pass few days ago...English, Chinese and Malay paper was kinda easy, but then I just messed up my Math and Sejarah paper lol. Four more subjects to freedom, gahhh!

There was many happy things happened in these few weeks, ha! (DON'T FEEL LIKE TYPING MUCH COZ YOU KNOW IT TAKES LIKE 56 YEARS TO END)

WeyHey! *qing qiang qiang* New updates here! Since my friends like to see me blogging in Chinese & some of my friends couldn't understand much, I decided to blog in two versions from now on... hmm, problems? I think no right? :3 

By the way, I joined Nuffnang Malaysia and trying to earn money by blogging :D Therefore, do click on the links if you're interested on it. ;) (don't be irritated of it la) lol.

Let's talk something about music :) One of my close friend, Winnie bought a guitar recently! It's exactly the same as mine except the colour :3 hers is black and mine is Purple. She is now my awesome buddy to talk with and the little gap between us disappeared. Remember we used to treat each other as strangers when we were in different class in primary school lol (so stupid) But now, we are really good friends. We share thoughts and she's like the only one I can sing with. (coz many of my friends don't like to sing and i don't know why lol) I'm so blessed to have Winnie as my buddyz, my sista! 

And yeah, I did a cover of Someone like you by Adele! It was quite random though :P It is dedicated to my Best friend, Felicia Woo to wish her a Happy B Day :B In case you aren't mind to listen to a lousy sound and watch an ugly face, click here to watch hehehehehehhe -----> :P  (FEELS LIKE ADVERTISING MYSELF YO)

I went to the dentist on Friday, and she plucked my tooth. *OUCH* It was PAIN but if you're a brave girl you wouldn't be scared right x) (why can someone be so perasan) LOL pics will be post later :3 (no no no it must be nasty)

Am I going to end my post? yes. Don't miss me too much, I will be updating my blog once a fortnight or once a week :)

Thanks for stalking my blog, dear readers. I love you. <3

Holidays again (Hari Raya)

Well I'm back peeps :-) I ditched my blog for so long I think? Haha. I don't know. I'm too lazy to blog even there's many task for me to blog and rant. By the way, belated Hari Raya to all my malay Friends! :)
Actually I've nothing to blog about. I feel like blogging somehow. The pass few days were so bored and I was doing like absolutely nothing. I hate myself. Besides that, I'm addicted to Tumblr too. Tumblr is kinda great :D Another silent place that I could blog whatever I love, without anyone stalking :) I love being alone/ anti-social sometimes. I need privacy.

So yeah. Nothing special happened on last month. Just my shitty results. I've never been so suck before, I'm turning from a lazy bug to an extremely lazy bug. Well I hate myself. I broke my own promise. Ugh.

It was a lame holiday. Left these few days to go then I'm back to school to face those hateful homeworks, examinations and pbs. I was happy last week because I went Maggie's house for practices, went cinema with tuition's mates and gathering with BestFriends. But those times were so short and mum doesn't let me to go anyway I want to go anymore. *Sigh* I have a bad life.

I think the only point for being happy is Friday. Esther's party. Nah this was told to mum few weeks before and mum promised to let me go. (It's apparently a YES for me because she is my best friend and she will be leaving very soon :/)  YAY. I'm actually so looking forward to her party :D I think I might be having a great time and this will probably be an unforgetable and awesome memory. Furthermore I'll also upload the photos and interesting shits I do in Esther's party. Yay ;) *exciting*

How about some Zayn's photo to make your day? ;D
{his eyes. his smile.}

{I JUST CAN'T}

{DONT TOUCH ME IM SCREAMING DONT }

{zayn you gave me anxiety}

Hehe. I love One Direction a lot and I guess I'd be a huge Directioner FOREVER ! <3

By the way it's nearly 2am here. I think I have to say goodnight. ;) 

Be happy everyday guys! Everyday may not be good but it is always something good in everyday.

Love ya. x

Struggles.

Blah :p HELLO PEHPLE. before I start this, lemme spam some photos as I said in my last post :)

{captured in sinar harapan camp. you know I seldom edit photo right.This is genuine nice.}

         

{:)}

{Compliments on my capturing skills? :D}

        

{ugly ok }

         

{when the hazes hit! mask on}

{sinar camp's vanue}

{:)}

{:)}

{loving this outfit}

{Time Square ;D WORLD LARGEST CAPSULE VEDING MACHINE}

       

-spam ends- :P

Has been awhile people :) 

Since I ditched my blog earlier lol. Nah, not even called ditch but i was just so damn lazy to blog. I am a bloody lazy ass. Literally :x Hmm...many things happened in these days though. I smiled, cried, laughed. Eventually, I can feel the stress , sadness and pressure of teenagers. IT IS NOT EASY TO ENDURE MAN. We pass through pains. I can't deny that there's a lot of struggles in high school times. Everyone seems wearing a mask and you can't even see them clearly inside through your eyes. We have to use our heart, and mind. :) 

Fake people, arrogant people, attention seekers, bitches, cunts, nasty people and a lot of disgusting ones. We face. Struggles about friendships, relationship with family, and the most mainstream one, relationship aka love. LOL I don't feel like talk much about this because I'll probably get down. Hm. 

We have to see clearly, who are our real friends ? Who are the ones we can exactly count on? We have to be smart of our every decision. ;) 

Teenagers have struggles. But they have happiness too! I found plenty of real good friends! They treat me with their sincere heart. I feel blessed. Genuine blessed. I'm not going to mention them because they know it ;) 

*long sighs* People around me changed. Somehow. From hot to cold , from good to bad, from bad to worse, from passionate to cool, from talkative to love to hide, from happy...to upset. I'm really really fed up on these shits. Couldn't even endure. To people who changed, please, turn back to your own self and stay. You guys are the ones I do really care.▲ 

So yeah I'm gonna end my rants coz I don't want you guys to be upset after reading my blog :p 

What about talk something 'bout studies? :) As usual, worse. Lmao. Got 70th among five hundred+ students. Seems good but really SUCKS. 

An obsession with stars these days ★. Just like my dream, perhaps now I'm just a dull star but I believe, someday, I'll shine, brightly. ;) ♥ Actually I have much to say but you know it's so hard to express by typing and it's so difficult to pour out all the feelings inside your heart just by typing. Hmm so yeah I just want to be a happy kid and happy always. Live a simple life ✔ 
Love everyone who loves me. ♬ Goodnight. ♪ 

ciao ★

Obligatory Life.

hey cecelia's lovers lol. I'm in a pinky mood right now! C;

It's holidays now. Felicia and Janice had back to KL for three days, damnit , just THREE days. All because of Felicia, she needs to attend her school's tuition because this year is her PMR(Malaysia's essential lower secondary asessment) year. HOhOhoHo. ((yeah I'm sarcastic :P By the way, do you guys know who's Felicia and Janice? Taa-daa! they're my cousins. Awesome cousins. And yet they're my best friends too. 

*sigh* speak of PMR, I get bored again. why la have to canceled PMR and set up a new one called PBS ? PBS sucks. And we, the 1999-ian, are the first batch of students who suffer this -.- SO LAME.   

Have been a long while I didn't update my blog. Eventually, I kicked my lazy ass off. muahaha~ what to blog? hmm. Blog about this holidays. As I typed, Felicia and Janice are already back to Johor. Therefore my holidays would be more lame. ugh. But, dad and mum will be taking us to Kuala Selangor tomorrow! YAY. For what? I don't really know hahaha but I'll update it soon.

Let's talk something about mah bestie, Emerald Hee. I dreamed of her yesterday, LOL ! weird enough right ? hahaha ! maybe I miss her too much. I know she misses me too :B I'm so touched and so happy becoz of her! Her blog post. she blog about me. GOSH. I'M FEELING SO BLESSED AND TOUCHED. DAMNIT. I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH LA. AND YOU REALLY REALLY MEAN A LOT TO ME. *EMERALDISMYBESTFRIEND* muahaha :P copying you~~ I'm not going to share her blog link becoz I haven't get her permission yet lol. Most of people like to stay privacy of their blogs. I respect my bestie. ;D 

In addition, people, I am obsessed with AVRIL LAVIGNE !! She's so fabulous. I'm addicted to her songs too. She genuinely amazed me. Here's some photos of her. 
{without make up, simply beautiful right :3}

{Here's To NEVER Growing Up :) she's forever young.}

{Avril with green hair! Gorgeous! :D }

YEAH I'm so proud to say I'm a little black star.

What to blog next? I guess no more? lol. Sometimes I feel lifeless and hopeless. I wish people do not ignore me. I feel hopeless for my second week's exams. ugh.

I hope life goes better day by day. Life is obligatory to be upset, and to be happy. It may be stormy now, but it wouldn't rain forever. Life is good ;) {I love you Emerald. ¥} Okay. I guess it's time to go to bed. meet ya soon.

Peace out ★

Sigh

yo.

I'm here again.I feel very sorry to those who's reading mah blog/following mah blog/randomly clicked in. Sorry for my bad grammar. Because I'm a totally Chinese,I speak Chinese in house,in school. I don't know since when, I type those status/tweet in English. Nah, I'm digressing again. I always do that,even though in Blog or in Essays. *facepalm*

Just base on the title: sigh. I'm here to say, this year is the worst year I ever go through.
I fell from class 1 to class 3. I have no qualification to grumble. I can only endure.
Since 2013 started, everything are just like try to piss me off. I dropped into an abyss, it's literally hard to get up back. I have no reputation anymore. No more. 

Frankly, it is no any thing such like : you are not in our class but you are in our heart. no. Honestly bro, I've lost many time to spend with yours, 2d1-ian and 2d2-ian. But never mind, I gained some friends in 2d3. nah, just some. I don't really like this class and yeah there is a bitch in that class. you don't know who's that and you better don't know. I also unwilling to type it out.It is just wasting my time and my space. 

Moreover, hm...fake friend. A person I don't willing to type out too. She acts in-front of me and said I am her truly good friend. Uhh...I trusted it. (stupid) But lastly I noticed that she lied on me. She said many bad things behind me, and told all my friends that I am such a blunt guy. (man, i'm just really blunt -.-) Hell yeah dude, I am just as bad as you said. I was a fool. Why would I believed in such liar?? Oh my god how dumb was me! But now I am currently well. She can kisses my ass, I can't. Lmao.
{I'll freaking show you my bitchy side if you kiss my ass.}

Besides that, another extremely bad news. My parents argued. It was just happened yesterday, my dad scolded my mum in front of their customers and friends. In case you are my mum, what will you feel? I don't type out the whole story because this is just a shame, for my mum, my dad and of course me. Since I was born, the first time i see my parents argue like so seriously terrible. My mum cried, I cried too. But eventually they are fine now. Somehow I feel blessed. After a stormy rain, there is a golden sky. <3

Tomorrow is Mother's Day! Woohoo! I love my mum a lot. <3 Dearly mama, I may be naughty and disobedient sometimes (or always lol), but deeply inside, I love you. And I know you love me too! hehehehe xD I haven't buy a gift for my mum yet omg gonna be cramming soon! lol 临时抱佛脚，my habit, a very bad habit! Don't learn to be cram from me peeps :X

Lemme tell you guys a secret! There's exam next week, and I still haven't done my revisions yet. Err... I mean...Studying = STUdent + DYING. MUAHAHAHAHA ! =.= lame? 

Gonna cramming again! damn. 

NIGHTS MY DEAR READERS. PEACE OUT YO Ψ