Would they love you more?

If they knew you were never properly lived and taken care of, would they love you more?

If they knew how weak you are under those smiling eyes, would they love you more?

If they knew you cry yourself to sleep all these nights, would they love you more?

If they knew you were always so insecure, would they love you more?

If they knew you don’t know how to love yourself enough, would they love you more?

If you stop asking if they would love you more, would they love you more?

If you stop existing, would they love you more?

Malheureux

Just the thought of you 

Stings me.

I feel my chest cramping 

Like a monster is in me.

I wanted to dress to impress

Have snacks to release stress

Make sure I am not depressed.

Efforts I put in become less

But you are still there

And said I’m the best

Thought I had other friends,

Where are the rest?

Flash-backs 

Are something that I hope you not look at

Do not think back 

Because I am not a part of your memories,

Not yet.

I find myself longing for your messages 

Every second every day

And even if my love will not be reciprocated 

I hope I will find my way

Back to the life full of joy and happiness

I pray.

Wanderer

Like a drifter you are,

There’s nowhere you belong;

The place you called home,

You don’t stay for long.

You want to be set free,

But you’re abandoned;

Because among all these stones,

You are a pea.

What a tragedy,

The heart suffers from an injury,

Fake love is your remedy,

Loneliness is your enemy.

All you want is to feel loved after all, 

Is to belong to a shelter you can call home;

Like how the seawater leans on the seashore,

Or a mind that can comprehend, a soul that is grown.

A poem about him

He knows.

He knows that I'm in love with him.

Every single word he says,

Pushing me so far away;

I dare not even to stare,

He cannot take time to care;

He does not like me,

He just wants to play.

To him, life's like a game;

Playing with my feelings is a part which is lame.

Fame? He does not want it,

All he wants is a couple billions of side chicks.

One day, in the middle of the night;

A phone call from him makes her smile so bright.

She was so delight,

Thought he was the knight,

Who would have known, that things have changed?

His pretty face's the same, nothing else remains.

She cries a lot, her heart breaks into pieces;

Shattered by words, hiding in a blanket and shivers.

No one has ever hurt her like how he did.

What's the power of this little shit?

Two different worlds but she fell for him;

In the world of love, she never wins.

SUP :P let's talk about movies #whoops

weyhey!!! you've missed me don't you :3 so yesterday i went to chop my hair off into a really short length...which means i have a new hairstyle now! :D 

and just now i went to watch THG: Mockingjay part1 with my mum. well...it was actually pretty good but far from what i expected :/ hmm...

Okie. let's talk about movies today~ i have alots of favourite movies. like a lot! especially fantansy series (which i mentioned about) and some really good trilogies... and adaptions form great books!

If you ask me what is, or are my most favourite movies, i would definitely answer THE HOBBIT! The lord of the rings series. these are really AMUSING films with amazing soundtracks, stories (regardless of sequels or prequels), visual enjoyment and the actings of the actors. <3
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so i'm finally updating this post hahaha! it's been a long while since this post was on my drafts~

I went to watch Cinderella with my mum today, and yeah, it was so good, as what i expected hoho! FANTASY SERIES LEH WALAO OF COZ GOOD KAN???!!! :P

Except for fantasy series movies like Harry Potter (which i love alot), I too, like to watch other kind of movies :) Dramas also, like SHERLOCK! yay :3 
So to be honest, I love the movie as long as it's good. hheehehhehe :P

Anyways, I think my mum is kinda...care alot about my relationship status and all the stuffs these days LMAO XDD. She kept asking me about boys and who chases me and stuffs like that HAHAHAHA mum what you want xD plus she said, dad and her would not be stoping me for having a relationship if i really have one. WHY? because they said, if i really love the boy HAHAH if i really want to be in the relationship, nothing can stop me (YEP THATS WHAT SHE SAID)!

CANNOT BELIEVE THEY SUDDENLY BECAME SO "OPEN MINDED"?!

LOL! I would want a movie date though~ <3

OKAY enough for these ~! stay tuned for more~BUT IM REALLY LAZY THO HAHAHA

buhbye :P

What I do on Holidays

It's finally holidays. heh~

Holidays are kind of bored compared to what I expected hmm maybe it's just the startings hohoho!! Basically i've done the choir practise and the days after this will be some sorakan(cheers) practises and some dates with people~~~HEHEHAHAHAHOHOHUHUHUHU!!!!!!!!

I am watching glee. It is really interesting but quite much for me to finish haha thanks to one of mah bestie for the pendrive XD.

Okay. Talking about relationships huh, I am still single since 1999 hahah :P Never been in a relationship before because I am too cool for that hehehe!!! for those confessions and rejections... i'm kinda a lunatic. hoho. I follow what I want to do so yeah! 爱情白痴。 I am that. (just incase you care and dont know about the meaning just google it :B)

Too young to fall in love. But it's okie to feel butterflies and curious about it right? ;)

*winks* wait for the next post cece lovers! :*