happiness is in peace & in love

brief update, in peace: I finally left the night-shift job a month ago and I feel better than ever. The hours had made me suffer so much, both emotionally and physically. I'm glad I can now work on things I like instead of working only for the money. Broke but happy I guess :P 

brief update, in love💘: I never thought that I would actually meet someone I really like and fall head over heels for (well not literally but you get me XD). I met him at the end of November 2021...but remained friends until this year. I guess when you're in love with someone...you make the first steps, so yep...a little bit shy but proud to say that I confessed to him and we've been together ever since! <3

happiness is in peace and in love. I am truly glad that I, like some, are able to experience the joy of loving, caring for, and growing together with my partner. here's to many more years of happiness and growth!

p.s. ily, my muffin! #mikmik 🐝👻

Malheureux

Just the thought of you 

Stings me.

I feel my chest cramping 

Like a monster is in me.

I wanted to dress to impress

Have snacks to release stress

Make sure I am not depressed.

Efforts I put in become less

But you are still there

And said I’m the best

Thought I had other friends,

Where are the rest?

Flash-backs 

Are something that I hope you not look at

Do not think back 

Because I am not a part of your memories,

Not yet.

I find myself longing for your messages 

Every second every day

And even if my love will not be reciprocated 

I hope I will find my way

Back to the life full of joy and happiness

I pray.

A poem about him

He knows.

He knows that I'm in love with him.

Every single word he says,

Pushing me so far away;

I dare not even to stare,

He cannot take time to care;

He does not like me,

He just wants to play.

To him, life's like a game;

Playing with my feelings is a part which is lame.

Fame? He does not want it,

All he wants is a couple billions of side chicks.

One day, in the middle of the night;

A phone call from him makes her smile so bright.

She was so delight,

Thought he was the knight,

Who would have known, that things have changed?

His pretty face's the same, nothing else remains.

She cries a lot, her heart breaks into pieces;

Shattered by words, hiding in a blanket and shivers.

No one has ever hurt her like how he did.

What's the power of this little shit?

Two different worlds but she fell for him;

In the world of love, she never wins.

It’s 2018

I cannot believe how quick time flies. I was going to update a recap of my 2017 before it ends but it ended, so soon. 

2017 has been a great year for me, I turn 18 & it was a turning point of my life, a transitional period from a high school student into a university student. From naive to slowly becoming matured. Lost my phone, bought one, worked, studied, realised.

In 2017,

I scored pretty decent grade for my Sem1 & Sem2 of foundation. I feel grateful and really glad, but to not turn my excitement into a show off, I did not post it on social media or tell the entire world about it. I guess I will continue to work hard in silence and let my success make the noise.(but not so much noise I guess, I fear.)

I also bought an iPhone 6 using my own money from working last year.

I got both motorcycle and car driving license. I failed once for both test but guess what I passed them eventually. Hehe. (I literally jumped and yelled at the driving institution after knowing I passed)

I reconnected back with my high school crush. I didn’t tell him I liked him though, although my actions pretty much showed everything 😂 he was someone who would play guitar to me, someone who was very special, mysterious. I don’t think he liked me though hahahahah :/ but everything was a “was”. He changed and started to smoke, started to consume alcohol, he also told me that he probably has depression. Well. I was having a tough time knowing that he’s changed but I got over it and moved on. We don’t talk anymore. But he was still a quite vital person during my high school life thus yeah. I think I will make him a card for his birthday this year(2018). But trust me though, I have moved on. I will be continue searching for my true love this year~

In 2018,

I wish to be better. It’s something I say every single new year but hey, who doesn’t want to strive for better? 

I wish to find a boyfriend, and in order to do that

I have to become prettier. I have to started being more fashionable(this was my new year resolutions a few years ago wtf cece u unproductive lil shit)

I have to spend money on things I love. Food, clothes, stop hesitating. You’re almost 19 Cece, nothing to hold back anymore. But still control abit la LOL

2018 will also be the year I officially move to Kampar. Many things will change, and we will see. Hope things change for the better, not for worse.

Next update will be about new year I guess. Oh ya, I also came up with an idea of creating a Vlog, for my evolution (LMAO) and I will start Vlogging about slowly becoming more fashionable I guess? 😂🤣 also the new year video I had been talking last year which didn’t happen 😅😐 hahaha! 

I also kind of want to reupload videos of me singing song covers and songs I wrote? 🤔

I too, want to have tattoos to cover up my hideous looking scars. 😭😢😞

I’m currently sitting at Starbucks alone, blogging. I’m leaving now, because I feel like peeing and I guess that’s all for this post? 

❤️

Another day another embarrassing thing I do

One of the #FactsAboutMe is that I do embarrassing things all the time.

4-4-2017 (Tuesday)

I was chit chatting during work with two of my friends. A family consisting an uncle, an aunty and two young men passes by, wanting to buy Hokkaido cheese tarts as usual like any other customers. I assume the uncle was the father, the auntie was the mother and the two young men were the sons. The mummy was speaking in Korean to the youngest son. Me, a person who's obsessed with Korean guys, was apparently really happy and 花痴 because duh! They're KOREANS! I kept telling the two of my friends( in Chinese) and my colleague (in Malay) about how happy I was to see Koreans speaking Korean & I couldn't help but kept smiling. 

Customers generally ask us to reheat the tarts (if they want hot ones) because FYI there're different ways of eating Hokkaido cheese tarts. I personally prefer cold ones and I basically put them into the freezer before consuming. TRUST ME IT TASTE RLLYYYYY GOOOOODDD~ 

Out of topic lol.

Ok so after a while the youngest son came back and asked my colleague to reheat the tarts. Since I assumed that Koreans don't understand Chinese (stereotype) I kept talking about how hot the guy was, how handsome Korean people are and how much I love Korean people. YEP, I want a Korean boyfriend in the future!!! If I can lmao. After around five minutes of being a 花痴, I said to my friends "what if he actually understands Chinese? Haha, I would be dead though" 

I turned around and looked at the guy, he was actually smiling with the look "yep I understand Chinese" 

My whole mind went blank....

Damn, I just embarrassed myself.

Miserably.

After the guy left, I kept punching myself and asked myself WHY AM I SO FKN STUPID????!!!!

All my colleagues & friends does was just laughing at me. I've told my parents about it, & they laughed at me too😑

But deep down inside, I truthfully want to meet them again lol especially the youngest son. All I can remember was, the youngest sons skin was a little tanned, he has double eyelids, has braces, he was wearing a pink(?) cap, a white singlet and a denim jacket. For the elder guy, he has the typical Korean looking face, white skin, and he was wearing a puma green jacket (I like the jacket) 

I was too embarrassed to talk to him, I should have asked for his name, at least! Sigh.

But then, he must be used to this kind of situations already, kan? Since he is so hot & the fact that he's Korean.

Blablabla. I kinda believe in fate, so if we're meant to meet again, we will. Hahahah, bless my stupid 花痴 heart.

Annyeong! (˶‾᷄ ⁻̫ ‾᷅˵)

SUP :P let's talk about movies #whoops

weyhey!!! you've missed me don't you :3 so yesterday i went to chop my hair off into a really short length...which means i have a new hairstyle now! :D 

and just now i went to watch THG: Mockingjay part1 with my mum. well...it was actually pretty good but far from what i expected :/ hmm...

Okie. let's talk about movies today~ i have alots of favourite movies. like a lot! especially fantansy series (which i mentioned about) and some really good trilogies... and adaptions form great books!

If you ask me what is, or are my most favourite movies, i would definitely answer THE HOBBIT! The lord of the rings series. these are really AMUSING films with amazing soundtracks, stories (regardless of sequels or prequels), visual enjoyment and the actings of the actors. <3
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so i'm finally updating this post hahaha! it's been a long while since this post was on my drafts~

I went to watch Cinderella with my mum today, and yeah, it was so good, as what i expected hoho! FANTASY SERIES LEH WALAO OF COZ GOOD KAN???!!! :P

Except for fantasy series movies like Harry Potter (which i love alot), I too, like to watch other kind of movies :) Dramas also, like SHERLOCK! yay :3 
So to be honest, I love the movie as long as it's good. hheehehhehe :P

Anyways, I think my mum is kinda...care alot about my relationship status and all the stuffs these days LMAO XDD. She kept asking me about boys and who chases me and stuffs like that HAHAHAHA mum what you want xD plus she said, dad and her would not be stoping me for having a relationship if i really have one. WHY? because they said, if i really love the boy HAHAH if i really want to be in the relationship, nothing can stop me (YEP THATS WHAT SHE SAID)!

CANNOT BELIEVE THEY SUDDENLY BECAME SO "OPEN MINDED"?!

LOL! I would want a movie date though~ <3

OKAY enough for these ~! stay tuned for more~BUT IM REALLY LAZY THO HAHAHA

buhbye :P

The year is going to end

hey!!! I'm eventually here, blogging!! I know you've been missed me a lot. Do you? NGEHEHE :P 

My holidays had spent really well <3 and i still have a lot of photos to upload for you all to see but photos arranging is really knotty! :( And yeah I watched The Hobbit: Desolation Of Smaug with Felicia, my brother and my mum <3 We watched at The Mines, and we had starbucks. OMG. It's exactly what Felicia and I did last year man. I WANT THIS TO BE CONTINUED EVERY YEAR!!! <3

Ordered mpcha frappucinno, and the waiter wrote my name nicely(not really lol), a smiley and "smile". aw gosh i feel so blessed!

{aw <3}

{felicia and I <3}

A really bad newz I'm going to announce. My phone is officially dead! ugh! So upset and pissed at the same time :( But fortunately I saved some photos & musics into the computer *long sighs*

Lately I've been attached to boy bands and their songs are truly amusing. Here are some songs I recommend you to listen in case you haven't (they are really great omg)
1. You & I by One Direction
2. Angel by Westlife 
3. Secrets by One Republic 
4. Counting Stars by One Republic
5. As Long As You Love Me by Backstreet Boys
6. Uptown Girls by Westlife
7. My Love by Westlife
8. I Want It That Way by Backstreet Boys
9. Little White Lies by One Direction
10. We Own The Night by The Wanted

;) 

There are still a lot of great songs out there and I love to explore new nice musics! hehe :D
Can't believe that the year 2013 is going to end so fast :( I built a lot of nice memories with my friends and family this year :'') I have to catch the time & update this blog avail it's still 2013 haha *cramming* 

Apart from this, I really like it when guys be very nice to me but at the same time I'm afraid of getting crush on you. :( You know we're still young and I'm not ready for a relationship yet. I hurt some nice guys who treat really well to me and I'm here to say sorry coz I really don't have the feelings for you :( Sorry for rejecting, unless you're someone special :x haha. 

It's okay to have curiousity about love during puberty right? :P 

Frankly I still have a lot to share and a lot to blog about but meh just leave it to the next post haha :3 *laziness overload* 

Buhbye! xo

Bello! ;)

I find this word cute. It's from the banana-potato thingy lol! Despicable Me 2. :O Plus it's Avril new album's name!! BELLO. BELLO.

I kinda have a feeling to blog today c: Let's talk about my results? It is bloody bad though. I wish I won't be in the third class next year...lol 

(Actually I have nothing to blog about hahahahahaha no not funny oh well so yeah what should i say next)

I'm so looking forward to the holidays! I have camp and I'm going to Johor :) I'm delighted! :D I've missed my cousins in Johor a lot and I haven't been in Johor like... four years already! I think I am gonna have some fun. NGEAHEHEHEHEHEHE *big fat grin* 

I suddenly quoted this while I was in school. --> I am a loner. With insanity full filled. 
Seems cool right? But yeah that's me. 

{started to be cocky. meh.}

Currently obsessed to cool sporty guys with tan skin. (Or light cinnamon) *perasan* I'm likin' it. :3

goodbye yo.

Holidays again (Hari Raya)

Well I'm back peeps :-) I ditched my blog for so long I think? Haha. I don't know. I'm too lazy to blog even there's many task for me to blog and rant. By the way, belated Hari Raya to all my malay Friends! :)
Actually I've nothing to blog about. I feel like blogging somehow. The pass few days were so bored and I was doing like absolutely nothing. I hate myself. Besides that, I'm addicted to Tumblr too. Tumblr is kinda great :D Another silent place that I could blog whatever I love, without anyone stalking :) I love being alone/ anti-social sometimes. I need privacy.

So yeah. Nothing special happened on last month. Just my shitty results. I've never been so suck before, I'm turning from a lazy bug to an extremely lazy bug. Well I hate myself. I broke my own promise. Ugh.

It was a lame holiday. Left these few days to go then I'm back to school to face those hateful homeworks, examinations and pbs. I was happy last week because I went Maggie's house for practices, went cinema with tuition's mates and gathering with BestFriends. But those times were so short and mum doesn't let me to go anyway I want to go anymore. *Sigh* I have a bad life.

I think the only point for being happy is Friday. Esther's party. Nah this was told to mum few weeks before and mum promised to let me go. (It's apparently a YES for me because she is my best friend and she will be leaving very soon :/)  YAY. I'm actually so looking forward to her party :D I think I might be having a great time and this will probably be an unforgetable and awesome memory. Furthermore I'll also upload the photos and interesting shits I do in Esther's party. Yay ;) *exciting*

How about some Zayn's photo to make your day? ;D
{his eyes. his smile.}

{I JUST CAN'T}

{DONT TOUCH ME IM SCREAMING DONT }

{zayn you gave me anxiety}

Hehe. I love One Direction a lot and I guess I'd be a huge Directioner FOREVER ! <3

By the way it's nearly 2am here. I think I have to say goodnight. ;) 

Be happy everyday guys! Everyday may not be good but it is always something good in everyday.

Love ya. x

One-Direction FEVER !!

AHHH IT'S ONE D !! *O*
Nowadays one direction become my lovers and I love them AWWW <3
Actually everyone needs music isn't it? Without MUSIC, life is just like a SHIT :P
Music is too much important for me, especially da GUITAR <3
When I hear One D 's song like "Little things","Live while we are young","One thing" and so on then my heart just burned for them....LOL 
And Malaysians always use special word to express themselves or their feeling and now I'm gonna to say -->WALAO EHH !! 

Imma Directioner TOO ~~~~~~ :P

So if you wanna know more about malaysia's things , just subscribed Jinnyboy's TV on Youtube. JinnyBoy's TV is AWESOME :D
Here is that, More than word. Always happened in Malaysia~
Sorry that I can't share da video so I just share da link ya~
Enjoyyy~~http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=siE0rCiDK-c
It's time to sleep now so bye guys :P