About birthdays

Birthdays have always been so special to me. Perhaps because I have never been treated specially and wanted to experience how it feels like to be extremely loved for that one day.

There were many unforgettable birthday moments for me during my past 21 years of birthdays, but this year is probably one of the birthdays I feel really loved and appreciated. 

I remember crying and ranting about how lonely and left out I would be on my birthday, I was anxious, I was afraid of not having a companion, I was feared being abandoned and that people don't even remember my birthday. 

But, blissfully, I was wrong. Thanks to my beloved friends.

Thank you so much, to every single one of you for making me feel blessed, and loved. 

It’s 2018

I cannot believe how quick time flies. I was going to update a recap of my 2017 before it ends but it ended, so soon. 

2017 has been a great year for me, I turn 18 & it was a turning point of my life, a transitional period from a high school student into a university student. From naive to slowly becoming matured. Lost my phone, bought one, worked, studied, realised.

In 2017,

I scored pretty decent grade for my Sem1 & Sem2 of foundation. I feel grateful and really glad, but to not turn my excitement into a show off, I did not post it on social media or tell the entire world about it. I guess I will continue to work hard in silence and let my success make the noise.(but not so much noise I guess, I fear.)

I also bought an iPhone 6 using my own money from working last year.

I got both motorcycle and car driving license. I failed once for both test but guess what I passed them eventually. Hehe. (I literally jumped and yelled at the driving institution after knowing I passed)

I reconnected back with my high school crush. I didn’t tell him I liked him though, although my actions pretty much showed everything 😂 he was someone who would play guitar to me, someone who was very special, mysterious. I don’t think he liked me though hahahahah :/ but everything was a “was”. He changed and started to smoke, started to consume alcohol, he also told me that he probably has depression. Well. I was having a tough time knowing that he’s changed but I got over it and moved on. We don’t talk anymore. But he was still a quite vital person during my high school life thus yeah. I think I will make him a card for his birthday this year(2018). But trust me though, I have moved on. I will be continue searching for my true love this year~

In 2018,

I wish to be better. It’s something I say every single new year but hey, who doesn’t want to strive for better? 

I wish to find a boyfriend, and in order to do that

I have to become prettier. I have to started being more fashionable(this was my new year resolutions a few years ago wtf cece u unproductive lil shit)

I have to spend money on things I love. Food, clothes, stop hesitating. You’re almost 19 Cece, nothing to hold back anymore. But still control abit la LOL

2018 will also be the year I officially move to Kampar. Many things will change, and we will see. Hope things change for the better, not for worse.

Next update will be about new year I guess. Oh ya, I also came up with an idea of creating a Vlog, for my evolution (LMAO) and I will start Vlogging about slowly becoming more fashionable I guess? 😂🤣 also the new year video I had been talking last year which didn’t happen 😅😐 hahaha! 

I also kind of want to reupload videos of me singing song covers and songs I wrote? 🤔

I too, want to have tattoos to cover up my hideous looking scars. 😭😢😞

I’m currently sitting at Starbucks alone, blogging. I’m leaving now, because I feel like peeing and I guess that’s all for this post? 

❤️

Thoughts while working 2

A full time job has come to me like finally. 

I'm currently a staff of Hokkaido Cheese Baker Tart.

Thanks to one of my friend for recommending me to this opportunity after seeing the "Vacancy" signboard.

This job is not hard. As an "experienced" part time worker / promoter, being a cashier & one of the service  crew is easy for me. It's just that, when there's no customers, there's actually nothing much you can do... that is when boredom strikes.

You see how free I am, I am writing this post in the middle of my working. Sometimes I kind of feel regret of getting myself a job though, I miss being a 废青.(someone who just sits at home and do nothing because she/he is too free)

But anyway, experiences and money are also vital comparing to freedom. Therefore, I just let myself survive until the end of April 2017, alright.

One more day to getting SPM results, I'd be lying if I said I'm not nervous. Honestly, I am, a little nervous. But since I already know how badly I screwed it up, I've already prepared myself for the disaster.

Will update soon! ❤️

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR 2017!

I am Chinese and I celebrate Chinese New Year every year with my family.
This year, I decided to do a video about Malaysian Chinese celebrating Chinese New Year in Malaysia and upload it onto my YouTube channel. I am not sure whether can I make it or not but I'll try my best to~

Bought myself some sweatpants, an oversized sweatshirt and my first ever pair of Adidas kicks. You know I don't really dress myself up and buy these stuffs for myself, but why eh? like what i mentioned on my last blogpost, I wanna be fashionable !! I'm gonna make it happen! hoho.

Since it's Chinese New Year Eve (除夕/年三十晚) today, and it's only a few minutes till Chinese New Year, I wish everyone a Happy Chinese New Year, 身体健康，万事如意，鸡年行大运！

will update very soon! brb 去吃柑 ☺❤❤❤

Thoughts while Working

working is boring. & I'm totally bored being a book seller while waiting for transportation. 

This is why I am now typing this blog post...coz I've just updated& downloaded this app yesterday, pretty useful this app is now...in curing my boredom hahaha~

I started my first job when I was 13 (or something I don't remember) it was a Kilang job. Kilang means factory in Malay by the way~ sitting on a chair for hours, making calendar and not be able to chit chat. I still remember that I had dreams of me making calendar during that time. It was an awful experience I could say...the bell that rings and symbolises our working time every morning at seven.....it was a nightmare. The wage too, was so little... I quited the job together with my cousin and never wanted to get back again.

My second job was being a teaching assistant in a tuition centre. That job was exhausting for me because I was part time working while studying. I did not even have time to study for examinations, and I was Form4....so called honeymoon year but it's actually a crucial year to score well in SPM. But for my braces, I still continue working and eventually achieved my goals. I think I've mentioned this on one of my blog posts before.

They say you win some, you lose some...certainly I gained money for braces, but thinking back, I sacrificed a lot of my time.

This job I'm currently working on is book Seller in a school. I'm sorted to a school at Kepong, KL. 30 bucks a day but it's definitely not worth it. Since this place is far from where i live( Seri Kembangan) and the wages are not high. There's 2% commission for those optional books & stationery...hence I'm trying my very best to hard sell them. this improves my English and Malay language skills. It also helps me to gain experience of being a "sales girl". Well, something like that. 

Soon I'll find new jobs since the time period for this job is ending. I'll be receiving my SPM results too on March. Graduation night is on tomorrow. Ah, I look forward to it. Reason? I'm wearing contact lenses and high heels for the first time. I am also wearing long dress and makeup (WOW IS THIS EVEN CECELIA). 

Tomorrow night will probably be the last time I see some of the people who I used to see everyday in secondary school. Pretty saddening just by imagining it, eh? But this is one of the stage of growing up, no matter how sad am I, I've got to move on.

As what I said on yesterday's post, stay tuned for the photos. I'll try my best to look decent HAHAH! 

At least memories never die. 

I Have Braces!

years ago, maybe standard six. i started to realize that my teeth is really uneven and crooked, and very ugly. i started to be insecure about it but didnt make any move, maybe because i was still young, didnt care much about what others would think or how i look.

since primary school i have always wanted to be a host, tv host. my friend once said that : "you can be a really good host but you should really go fix your teeth first"

i did not feel very upset because i agreed with it. therefore, when i was form three, fifteen, i told my parents that i really wanted, or more accurately, needed braces.

if you know me quite well you probably will know that i am not from a rich family, in fact, my parents do not even afford to pay 7000+ bucks for me to have braces. hence, i started to save money since then. of course i did not starve AHAHAHA just saving money like a normal person.

last year, 2015, i was form four and sixteen. i started a job as a teaching assistant in a tuition centre. i was quite busy about that (my results also turned bad altho its not entirely because of working). those times were hard man, maintaining studies, tuitions, koko and work. SO TIRED, SO EXHAUSTED. :( fortunately, some students which are totally sweethearts, always there to warm my heart.

{^o^}

eventually i saved & earned enough money (2500bucks) and my parents finally allow me to have braces and TA-DAA. :) 

{:目}

don't magnify the photo ah HAHAHA

thinking back the time when i didnt have braces, even laughing out loud becomes something hard for me. even smiling for photos also, extremely unnatural. although i don't look any much better now but i am very glad....after two years or more i will be having perfect teeth, even thinking about that makes me so so delighted! :D

some people think that im following trends since alot of people that are around my age went getting braces. but bruhs, u know what had i been through? :'( *sobs* 

anyways, this is considered as a very privotal thing for me myself, and i would really love to share. so i hope you enjoy this blog post and stay tuned for more updates ehehehehe :3 <3

CNY is coming very soon and i am very excited about it!!!! :D

goodbye loves ~

what actually matters?

you guys probably have no idea what happened these days...sigh. i don't even know how to put those into words. too many things happened, and to be really honest, i just feel really tired. but at the same time, i enjoyed things, i learnt...

maybe photos could tell you more? 

not to show off or whatever but these sum up my sixteenth , still have more to go tho... :)

do you ever feel lifeless...or emo or started to realize that they are actually alot of fake people in your life, even tho she or he is your close friend??? 

do you ever feel like theres no one to talk heart to, everyone seems busy with their own life as time passes by, as we started to grow older???

do you ever feel like, you are too dumb to realize ??

or is it just me who feel this way?

sometimes i really don't know how to deal with fake friends 

i think its a time for me to learn

but i don't wanna lose any of my friends

i appreciate each and everyone of them

i'd rather be dumb

i'd rather not find out the "truths", never

with that, i might not doubt my friends, might not doubt myself

"did i do anything wrong?"

"why do the haters hate me?"

i am 16, in a phrase where you started to learn things about "living"

i want my life to be happy, fullfilled, not wasted

not full of sadness, doubts, and fake friends.

i don't know what to do

can you tell me what to do?

i always say, when i am sad, i blog. because blogging always makes me feel better. it does though :)

+ the form fives are having SPM right tomorrow...means they're leaving us...leaving the school...to achieve their own goals :')

我会舍不得你们的 很舍不得 尤其是sayang我的那些你们... </3

what will i be without the form fives???? how????

i cannot accept the fact that, months later, me myself will be a Form5. which means ... i am facing SPM, more obstacles, more challenges...

but as i said,,,it's time to grow, right?

it's time to grow, Cece

you'll be better 

you'll strive for better

you'll have faith to strive for better :)

i believe in you, Cece

yes, i believe in myself.

SUP :P let's talk about movies #whoops

weyhey!!! you've missed me don't you :3 so yesterday i went to chop my hair off into a really short length...which means i have a new hairstyle now! :D 

and just now i went to watch THG: Mockingjay part1 with my mum. well...it was actually pretty good but far from what i expected :/ hmm...

Okie. let's talk about movies today~ i have alots of favourite movies. like a lot! especially fantansy series (which i mentioned about) and some really good trilogies... and adaptions form great books!

If you ask me what is, or are my most favourite movies, i would definitely answer THE HOBBIT! The lord of the rings series. these are really AMUSING films with amazing soundtracks, stories (regardless of sequels or prequels), visual enjoyment and the actings of the actors. <3
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so i'm finally updating this post hahaha! it's been a long while since this post was on my drafts~

I went to watch Cinderella with my mum today, and yeah, it was so good, as what i expected hoho! FANTASY SERIES LEH WALAO OF COZ GOOD KAN???!!! :P

Except for fantasy series movies like Harry Potter (which i love alot), I too, like to watch other kind of movies :) Dramas also, like SHERLOCK! yay :3 
So to be honest, I love the movie as long as it's good. hheehehhehe :P

Anyways, I think my mum is kinda...care alot about my relationship status and all the stuffs these days LMAO XDD. She kept asking me about boys and who chases me and stuffs like that HAHAHAHA mum what you want xD plus she said, dad and her would not be stoping me for having a relationship if i really have one. WHY? because they said, if i really love the boy HAHAH if i really want to be in the relationship, nothing can stop me (YEP THATS WHAT SHE SAID)!

CANNOT BELIEVE THEY SUDDENLY BECAME SO "OPEN MINDED"?!

LOL! I would want a movie date though~ <3

OKAY enough for these ~! stay tuned for more~BUT IM REALLY LAZY THO HAHAHA

buhbye :P

Holidays, again 😱

sup blogger!! Been missing you but too lazy to blog haha :p so yeah I've done the pt3 which is an important exam for class arranging next year. And I don't think I'll have a good results coz it was...hard.

It's holidays again :p actually I've been a lot these days, sitting for exam, studying, complicated relationship with family, performing Tamil song on the stage...and so much! Tomorrow I'll be hanging out to mid valley with my friends as Esther wants to re celebrate my birthday hehe. ☺️

I know I'm not so active on blogger these day hahah coz laziness :p do follow my on ig Twitter tumblr ask.fm Facebook and YouTube :3 coz I update in different social media :D 

Oh ya. I think I'm getting a new hairstyle very soon. Which means I'm cutting off my hair into shortter hair. And by shortter hair, I mean like this :

Well apparently that's not me. Lmao 😂 but I just went Google and found the hairstyle I want. The reason why I wanna chop my hair off is my mum. She said something. She said I'm young and I should tryout new things. I think it kind of makes sense, don't you think? ;)

I think that's all for now hehe ☺️, will blog more if I'm not lazy :p ✌️

Cece ❤️

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well i find that "u_u" emoji kinda cute so i just simply put it as title because i really don't know what to put there u_u

So recently I've been really busy(not really lol) so i did not update shits but yeah i still tweet u_u|| and if you had read my last post you'll basically be curious of what happened to me these days lol so imma gonna tell you now :P

1)Dad and mum are being mean and idk why perhaps they are having some troubles and i feel like they kinda over-protected me.(in my opinion) because i am like, a not-so-independent-girl who always trying to be independent and they are like "no you cannot". I know, they are really care about my safety but please, I am already 15 (nah lol) and I think it's time for me to grow up. for examples, I walk back to my grandma's house these three days and sleepover there because my parents went to Cameron Highlands and "throw" me and my bro to my grandma's house. lol and I decided to not burden my uncle and aunt to fetch me so i told them i will walk back home. Today i have ping pong meeting so I stayed till 3:30p.m. and when i reached home everyone's like "oi where did you went do you know everybody is worry bout you faster call your baba mummy and tell them you're back, FAST!!!" Fine...I called my dad and my dad scolded me and said "you think you're so clever is it now?" whaT THE HECK ?! I don't think I did anything wrong and I just think that they OVERLY CARED ABOUT ME! Especially my grandmother. plus I really dislike my aunt, uncle and grandma coz they always behave like a bitch/smoker/gossiper and I REALLY REALLY REALLY STRONGLY DISLIKE THEM. *trying to not bother about their detriments* 
{>:(}

2)Stressful coz the government has changed PMR to PBSMR and that shit actually irritated every single student (or teachers too). I always remind myself that this is an important shit and please do well and AHHHHHDAHAOJABFHWUW DO RE MI FA SO DONE WITH YOU!

3)Became busy coz i joined lots of koko(extracurricular activities) for marks and wow never wonder that is so exhausting.

4)Not sure about myself but I'm having a very strong curiousity about LOVE these days and meh you cannot judge bc i guess everyone had/have this kind of feeling before >~< I don't really have a crush right now or maybe my eyecandyz are way too much. LMAO!!

YEAH THAT'S WHAT I'M GOING TO BLOG an imma glad because I am not lazy today and blogged kinda a lot! n_n

Furthermore, I'm going to add a new tag on my blog : TO-DO-LIST (shopping list juga)
YAY. I believe that having a to-do-list & shopping list basically motivates me to be more hardworking and more assertive!!! ^o^

{hehe}

To-do-list and shopping list might be updated very soon and i hope y'all awesome readers will be patient about that heheh :3 
Love ya, peace! ★

It's my birthday :D

Short post. ;)

It's my Birthday guys! Thanks for all the wishes and presents and cakes and blaahhh <3

Love you guys tons.

xo.

*damn this is really short lol*

New year . Fresh start .

Happy New Year everyone. It's 2013!! We all have been safe. What the heck ? doomsday? aha -.-
New year . Fresh start . 
But dearly, I miss the past :(
I will rock 2013, make it awesome :)
Remember, 2013 won't be good to you, but you can make it as amazing as you can :D

Holidays are BORED !

Holidaysss here .
But why I am not happy at all ?
Maybe I'm too bored :/
So......me and ma cousin decided to create some video and upload to YOUTUBE or FACEBOOK :D
Hey guys , i have a question ,
WHY NOBODY FOLLOWS ME ON TWITTER ?!?!
ohhh.... ikr .... maybe no one cares about me :'')
Okayss ! now you know that i have twitter right ??
So................................
FOLLOW ME !! :D
here is that : https://twitter.com/CeceliaChangCCC