It’s 2018

I cannot believe how quick time flies. I was going to update a recap of my 2017 before it ends but it ended, so soon. 

2017 has been a great year for me, I turn 18 & it was a turning point of my life, a transitional period from a high school student into a university student. From naive to slowly becoming matured. Lost my phone, bought one, worked, studied, realised.

In 2017,

I scored pretty decent grade for my Sem1 & Sem2 of foundation. I feel grateful and really glad, but to not turn my excitement into a show off, I did not post it on social media or tell the entire world about it. I guess I will continue to work hard in silence and let my success make the noise.(but not so much noise I guess, I fear.)

I also bought an iPhone 6 using my own money from working last year.

I got both motorcycle and car driving license. I failed once for both test but guess what I passed them eventually. Hehe. (I literally jumped and yelled at the driving institution after knowing I passed)

I reconnected back with my high school crush. I didn’t tell him I liked him though, although my actions pretty much showed everything 😂 he was someone who would play guitar to me, someone who was very special, mysterious. I don’t think he liked me though hahahahah :/ but everything was a “was”. He changed and started to smoke, started to consume alcohol, he also told me that he probably has depression. Well. I was having a tough time knowing that he’s changed but I got over it and moved on. We don’t talk anymore. But he was still a quite vital person during my high school life thus yeah. I think I will make him a card for his birthday this year(2018). But trust me though, I have moved on. I will be continue searching for my true love this year~

In 2018,

I wish to be better. It’s something I say every single new year but hey, who doesn’t want to strive for better? 

I wish to find a boyfriend, and in order to do that

I have to become prettier. I have to started being more fashionable(this was my new year resolutions a few years ago wtf cece u unproductive lil shit)

I have to spend money on things I love. Food, clothes, stop hesitating. You’re almost 19 Cece, nothing to hold back anymore. But still control abit la LOL

2018 will also be the year I officially move to Kampar. Many things will change, and we will see. Hope things change for the better, not for worse.

Next update will be about new year I guess. Oh ya, I also came up with an idea of creating a Vlog, for my evolution (LMAO) and I will start Vlogging about slowly becoming more fashionable I guess? 😂🤣 also the new year video I had been talking last year which didn’t happen 😅😐 hahaha! 

I also kind of want to reupload videos of me singing song covers and songs I wrote? 🤔

I too, want to have tattoos to cover up my hideous looking scars. 😭😢😞

I’m currently sitting at Starbucks alone, blogging. I’m leaving now, because I feel like peeing and I guess that’s all for this post? 

❤️

Lost my phone.

Lost my iPhone 6s while riding motorcycle, yes, dropped it unknowingly.

Life has not been good since the day it happened. It feels like a part of myself is lost and will probably never be back. This is probably how breaking up with someone feels like?? lol.

Anyways, life in UTAR is so far ok. Got to know some friends, and also some sohai assignment teammates (fuck) People are correct, studying in UTAR is stressed out as fuck, and the stresses started since week6. Fuck it.

In these few months time, many happened, but one of the most important thing is that i passed my motor test HUHU FINALLY A P LISCENCE AFTER A YEAR OF BEING ILLEGAL.

I try so hard to move on and be happy after i lost my phone, i still am trying tho. One of my blogpost which i blogged about my working experience during raya break at Skechers is also gone along with my phone. I dont feel like typing it again anymore. sigh

But good thing I met someone familiar today at the bus stop. Remember when i blogged about the Korean guy that understood chinese? I am pretty sure i saw him today, but i didnt recognize him straight away, and i saw him went up the LNH bus. After that, my brain kept on rewinding because he was rEALLLLYYYY familiar, especially his braces lol. BOOM. HOLY MOLY. HE. IS. THE. KOREANGUYWHOUNDERSTOODCHINESE.
I RMB THE LAST TIME WHEN I FRIST MET HIM IT WAS ALSO TUESDAY LUL.

Heck, i forgot about him completely, but why does he appear in my life again? does that mean we're meant to MEET AGAIN AND AGAIN OHH SHIT~
he looks like the playboy type of guy. while i, am a sweet girl with zero love experience(wtf cece) he obviously flirts alot and has gf ady!! fine

will look for eye candies in UTAR, annyeong.

Another day another embarrassing thing I do

One of the #FactsAboutMe is that I do embarrassing things all the time.

4-4-2017 (Tuesday)

I was chit chatting during work with two of my friends. A family consisting an uncle, an aunty and two young men passes by, wanting to buy Hokkaido cheese tarts as usual like any other customers. I assume the uncle was the father, the auntie was the mother and the two young men were the sons. The mummy was speaking in Korean to the youngest son. Me, a person who's obsessed with Korean guys, was apparently really happy and 花痴 because duh! They're KOREANS! I kept telling the two of my friends( in Chinese) and my colleague (in Malay) about how happy I was to see Koreans speaking Korean & I couldn't help but kept smiling. 

Customers generally ask us to reheat the tarts (if they want hot ones) because FYI there're different ways of eating Hokkaido cheese tarts. I personally prefer cold ones and I basically put them into the freezer before consuming. TRUST ME IT TASTE RLLYYYYY GOOOOODDD~ 

Out of topic lol.

Ok so after a while the youngest son came back and asked my colleague to reheat the tarts. Since I assumed that Koreans don't understand Chinese (stereotype) I kept talking about how hot the guy was, how handsome Korean people are and how much I love Korean people. YEP, I want a Korean boyfriend in the future!!! If I can lmao. After around five minutes of being a 花痴, I said to my friends "what if he actually understands Chinese? Haha, I would be dead though" 

I turned around and looked at the guy, he was actually smiling with the look "yep I understand Chinese" 

My whole mind went blank....

Damn, I just embarrassed myself.

Miserably.

After the guy left, I kept punching myself and asked myself WHY AM I SO FKN STUPID????!!!!

All my colleagues & friends does was just laughing at me. I've told my parents about it, & they laughed at me too😑

But deep down inside, I truthfully want to meet them again lol especially the youngest son. All I can remember was, the youngest sons skin was a little tanned, he has double eyelids, has braces, he was wearing a pink(?) cap, a white singlet and a denim jacket. For the elder guy, he has the typical Korean looking face, white skin, and he was wearing a puma green jacket (I like the jacket) 

I was too embarrassed to talk to him, I should have asked for his name, at least! Sigh.

But then, he must be used to this kind of situations already, kan? Since he is so hot & the fact that he's Korean.

Blablabla. I kinda believe in fate, so if we're meant to meet again, we will. Hahahah, bless my stupid 花痴 heart.

Annyeong! (˶‾᷄ ⁻̫ ‾᷅˵)

Thoughts while working 3

Another day another thoughts while working blogpost 😂😅

Recently I've decided to study Foundation in arts in UTAR leading to Journalism degree. I will be visiting UTAR Sg Long the day after tomorrow with my parents. Since I wanted to take Journalism, I have to go Kampar, Perak to study three years of Journalism degree course after studying one year of foundation( in either Sg Long or Kampar). 

Of course I want to study in other institutes with good reputation and better environment but MY FAM ISNT THAT RICH AND MY RESULTS R SO GG (just like TT I'm like TT)

My friend is been telling me that she struggles to choose between UTAR & TARC thus I look up between the two to know their differences. I wanted to study UTAR because my mum says it's UNIVERSITY & TARC is UNIVERSITY COLLEGE so the UNIVERSITY one would be better (Asians). I agree too because UTAR also has better reputation. But when I look for details about Journalism degree course in TARC, I found out that I can study overseas (in U.K.) & the fees are actually cheaper than that in UTAR excluding accommodations fees and all that. Around 10k cheaper. 

I'm starting to hesitate because studying in UK & getting to speak with a British accent was actually my dream.....

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Yknow sometimes I feel pretty glad that I've graduated from high school and left toxic people who like to compare everything, judge everything and who have all the filthy personalities. But it seems like I cannot avoid these kind of people to appear in my life because I STILL FKN meet these kind of people. (the old ones seem to not change after graduating coz I thought they'd probably grow up or some shit)

People who are elder and more experienced told me that I cannot stop the people from behaving like that and they will ALWAYS be people like these in the society. I'll meet even more filthy people in the future when I really stepping out of my comfort zone to the brutal society.

I'm mentally prepared for that but I can't guarantee that I will not complain about it again???? Or do something insane???? Hopefully I don't because I'm such a nice person. 🤔 

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While I was searching for comparisons between UTAR & TARC I found a blogger who blogged about his life in UTAR therefore I read a little bit of his blog. He stopped blogging two years ago. And it's kind of saddening???!!?!?!?

Why does it make me so upset when bloggers stop blogging.....😭😢

Although no one actually reads my blogposts, I guess I wouldn't stop blogging??? I might be lazy to update my blog but for now I don't think I will ever stop blogging. 

Who knows someday someone would actually be interested in me and reads my blog? Or someone just like me who just inadvertently finds out my blog? LOL or maybe I would be a famous blogger someday and all the old blogposts would be so embarrassing (They already are 😂) 

Undeniably, a part of me wants all that to happen. 

Lmfao! Time to stop with all the imaginations and end this post here. I will update about my further studies soon. By the way, I failed to make a YouTube video about Chinese New Year, till next year then..😂

Annyeonghikaseyo :3

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