when i was very little, i thought the world revolves around me. well, not in a very cocky manner, but i thought my life was like a live streaming movie and my eyes are the lens. until i get older and older, i realize how oblivious i was, i am just in fact an insignificant little dust in the enormous world.
I have always been a ball of emotions, and I loved writing and expressing my feelings through words. Since young, I have been writing novels in Mandarin, and now I write English poems from time to time. For me, the thing that matters most is not the overflooding beautiful vocabularies, but the feelings and emotions you put in when you write something. If you are feeling happy, the readers can feel it, same goes to when you are feeling upset.
Hmm...what do you think I am feeling now?
Insignificant little dust wants you to know that you are not alone. They always say we are going to die someday, but aren't we dying little by little day by day? We are experiencing so many different emotions every day, let me name some negative ones I feel recently: feeling abandoned by the people who used to be one of my sources of happiness in university, feeling betrayed because the ones I never thought will leave me alone eventually left, feeling helpless because I performed very badly this semester, feeling exhausted because my family do not understand my stress and have been adding a lot more stress on me.
In fact, we are surviving, little by little, day by day.
In fact, we are surviving, little by little, day by day.
(gosh I hate how I'm so used to doing assignments that I automatically justified the paragraphs)
I sometimes feel like I am the loneliest, the worst, the most pitiful person in the world. But don't we all feel the same sometimes? Everybody has their own shit to get together with, everybody gets hurt, everybody learns, and eventually, everybody grows.
There are so many other things in life we should be grateful for, and I am not even going to name it, because you already know it. This is not toxic positivity, but look, the sky is so beautiful, the world is so beautiful, you, are so beautiful. innit?
It is totally okay to feel broken, to feel upset, depressed, to feel like no one understands, to feel unmotivated in life. The emotions we immersed ourselves into, be it negative or positive, are so precious.
I have always loved drowning myself into the pools of different emotions. You may wish to not feel anything anymore when you're sad, but what is sadder, is not being able to feel anything anymore.
xo
Je t'aime beaucoup, la vie est comme ca, si, juste allez avec c'est
(damn, i just want to flex my French a little at the end, not realizing how bad it is hahaha. that's all for now, salut)
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